But Emily, I don't get it. The best is to not try to get it and let it be. If it's meant to move you let it and if it isn't...then move on.
As for me and my philosophy, time will come and time will go but those that move with me stay with me. This then requires no sense of time but a sense of life.
Choose to live the life you want. Choose your background beats to go along with that life you want; then step forward.
Doesn't have to make sense but is has to make you move... moving into a direction of bigger and better things.
This is mine.
This moves me.
Les we judge.